Day 53

Weight: 13 stone 7 lb

Total weight loss since day 1: 1 stone 8 lb

Ok so there's one more week left in February and I have to admit that this month has been tough for me to stay raw.

I haven't been strict enough with myself and I've sort of lost my way a bit. Staying raw completely is very difficult for somebody who loves her food. I am such a big fan of cooked food...and I love cooking, which I've really missed doing over the past 2 months. The salads are good and doing the raw crackers and cakes have been fun, but I have to admit I'm not a big fan of raw food.

Cooked food is a massive addiction, worse than alcohol, cigarettes and drugs...and it's just so hard to kick,because it's EVERYWHERE and deemed normal in our society! However, cooked food doesn't make me feel good - physically, mentally, emotionally...

Yes, emotionally at the time, it tastes bloody good, but when I see what it does to my body and how I feel...emotionally it's not good for me. But with raw food, all of this is turned around with the highs of weight loss, energy, the whole 'feel-good factor' that it brings to me.

So, this food stuff's a real double-edged sword. I've always been an all or nothing girl, so...I either do it or I don't, there just can't be an 'in between' with me. 

On the positive side, I have really grown to love green smoothies (or any smoothies) far more than all of the other raw stuff that I've been putting in my system. 

I made a promise to myself on the first of January that I would lose 4 stone in 6 months and I am going to fulfill that promise because I'm not one who gives up easily...especially after 2 months!

So, as of tomorrow, I am going to do 60 solid days of raw, vegan, organic green and fruit smoothies.

This will be the biggest challenge I have ever faced in my life and I really need to do this for myself and I know that it's going to be a Hell of an experience...and you all have front row seats.

Wish me luck...actually I don't need it, just determination!

Hasta pronto